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ONE DECADE LATER


We all have the moment that rocks our world and changes our perspective. We all have a moment that we can look back to and be like, “WOW!! You need to get it together.”
Mine was at 21-years-old in 2011…

It was nearly one year after my third sibling had passed away and I was giving away the best of me for the worst of the world. I was doing what others said I should and I had lost all care in the world.

So, as the impulsive ADHD brain of mine would have it — I signed up for my first marathon and never stopped running.

Since then, life has been FAR FROM easy. From other losses of family, to the near loss of my daughter, to the health issues of my own, and to the move that nearly broke me — life just keeps on going.


No matter what happens in life time is never going to stop. Even when we take our last breath and years pass by we can either choose to be a person worth remembering or one we ourselves would rather forget.

Once upon a time I wanted to be forgotten. It’s a dark place to want that for yourself. To have the need to be rejected because rejection has become your normal. It sucks.
However, keep going.
On the worst day, keep going.
Imperfectly Yours,
Katie

WIN OR WHEN

Stop living in the WHEN && live in the NOW!!

When we have a house…
When we have a better house…
When we have a car…
When we have a better car…
When we have enough money…
When we have more money…
When we have Have HAVE HHAAVVEE!!

I know that many times I stop myself from pursuing new goals based on the circumstances of my NOW. However, maybe I lost a WIN waiting on the WHEN!!

We have to start pursuing the NOW moments because if we don’t — WHEN may never come. If we can change the perspective in our mind — we can see it’s already been WON.

Besides, NOW is WON backwards.

Imperfectly Yours,
Katie

SEVENTEEN YEARS SINCE THE CALL


06•01•2004
RING…RING…RING…
   [Caller ID: Ron Brown]
   I picked up the phone and ran outside.
      Me: Hey Bubba!!
      Man: Uhhhh, is this Katie?
      Me: Yyyeeessss…
      Man: Can I speak to your mom?
            At 14-years-old, I knew…

It’s been 17 years since I picked up the phone and you weren’t on the other end. 

Being born on Valentine’s Day has always had a “cool” factor, but being born on your birthday has been the real honor. As I’ve gotten older, without you, I’ve thought about how you would feel or what you were doing in the same age moments. However, today is surreal. 

Today, when I woke up I knew I had surpassed a moment in time that you never would. I became older than you did and that — that leaves me with a sour feeling of grief, again.

You will always be my big brother.
I love you, Ron Brown, always.

Love,
Your Baby Sister